17.7.23

Melipat jarak dari balik jendela ---

 



Melipat jarak dari balik jendela
Telah tibakah malam di kotamu? 
Matahari masih bersinar di tempatku 
Ku genggam sedikit kabar darimu layaknya ku genggam rasa percayaku yang rapuh
Ia lebih mudah pecah dari kaca, tetapi setebal tekad dan nyaliku ketika nekat meminta nomor ponselmu malam itu. 
Bisakah kabar yang tetap ku rawat dengan hati-hati -- walau rawan -- menjadi pengganti dirimu di seberang samudera sana? 

Ku ingat teori-teori tentang "rumah" dan kosmpolitan yang pernah ku pelajari bertahun-tahun lalu, 
Nama-nama itu masih hangat melayang-layang dalam ingatan, Ulf Hannerz, Homi Bhabha.  
Tapi bisakah kata-kata dalam buku mereka membantuku melipat jarak dari balik jendela untuk kita? 
Ah, nyatanya keningku masih berdenyut memikirkanmu.
Saking sibuknya kau bergelayut di kepalaku, hatiku jadi taksa; apakah ini harap, apakah ini cemas, haruskah ku berhenti?


Di negeri indah yang jauh dari rumah, ku akui bisa jadi Sjahrir tak berbohong saat menulis surat untuk Maria Duchateau;
"Apa yang tak kutemukan dalam filsafat, aku temukan pada dirimu." 
Bukankah kita tak perlu banyak menakar dałam merasa? 
Toh, siapa yang dapat menakar dalamnya hati manusia? 

Setelah ini aku bertandang ke kotamu, 
Temui aku di sana. 
Agar ku buktikan pada mereka, kita tak pernah butuh membuka telinga dan mencari pembenaran. 
Aku tak butuh membuktikan apa-apa, denganmu, biarkan aku jadi lugu layaknya terlahir kembali. 
Apa yang ku rasa dan apa yang mungkin kau rasa adalah sebenar-benarnya yang perlu kita menangkan. 

- 2023

17.5.23

Life Update!

Well, so many things happened since my last post. I even deleted some posts here because I don't think it is necessary to keep those posts anymore since my point of view, the way I see things, and the way I feel things already changing. I'm not saying I'm changing into completely different person, but well, maybe I'm just... evolving 

Okay, a quick life update before I (plan to, but let's see) come back to blog-ing again. I am no longer a journalist, now I have a corporate job in music industry that I'm completely grateful of and gladly learn a lot of new and interesting things. It's sooooo fun! Doing something new always challenging but it's always work out! 

Also, I turn 30 this year! I feel very content and happy. It's just the beginning of wonderful journey, I believe. 

So, I hope I can write more often since I have so many things to say but I don't know how to say it (eh?). 

Well, let's see. 

4.11.19

What Are You Doing Here?

What are you doing here?

Life will always give questions about:
What are you doing here?
Do you really know what life is?
Do you really get what the meaning of life?
How to make right decision?

Decision, decision, decision.
So, what are you doing here?

9.10.19

Welcoming October // September Review

The alarm keeps ringing
But they don't listen
They act as if they were deaf
Too deaf in the ears to hear the sound
No matter how loud it is

The alarm keeps ringing
But they have the bugs that keep buzzing
Both of them say it out loud
Which one is the loudest?

The alarm keeps ringing
Half of us realize it and we ready to pack our bags
Some of us even hold it tighter than ever
The rest are just don't care

The alarm keeps ringing
How to fix it?
What's wrong?
What should we do?
What's the matter?
What's going on?
How to do?

The alarm keeps ringing
But the people act like babies
They sleep and don't want to even notice
They sleep with pillows made by silk.

Cul.de.sac.
Jakarta, 2019

***
A little disclaimer: 
I first wrote this blog post earlier this month at the beginning of October. I also planned to post this piece of writings on first week of October. But then I can't manage to finish this article due to campus and work things and stuff. I postponed to post this until now. Well, let's continue the unfinished article and post it! 

Many songs are made of 'September' word, from Vina Panduwinata's September Ceria, Earth, Wind, & Fire's September, Edson's September to Green Day's Wake Me Up When September Ends. The month must be very special that a lot of musicians inspired by it. 

For me, I've been waiting for this year's September since the beginning of the year for personal reason. But after the September had been passed, I just think the month was beyond I ever expected before. This year's September was a rollercoaster ride. It was been ups and downs. 


I started the month by watching Superorganism and Prophet of Rage at Hodgepodge Superfest. It was two-day festival that held at Eco Park Ancol. North Jakarta on August 31st and September 1st 2019. Superorganism's performance was super cute. They are indie band based on England. I got opportunity to take a picture with some of their members but I think I don't want to upload it here. 

Prophet of Rage is a super band consists of Tim Commerford (from Rage Against the Machine and Audioslave), Tom Morello (from Rage Against the Machine and Audioslave), Brad Wilk (from Rage Against the Machine and Audioslave), DJ Lord (from Public Enemy), Chuck D (from Public Enemy), and B-Real (from Cypress Hill). Their performance was awesome. I can't find another word cause it was totally -- let me repeat once again -- like totally, really, really awesome.

There is always a context within text, it was funny when they put 'Make Jakarta Rage Again' on the screen. We are all know that (from the name and the personnel) Prophet of Rage must be a group of super political musicians. Due to racial treatment to some Papuans nomads in Surabaya, something happened in Papua, a rage and a riot, but they didn't bring the issue there. They wrote Jakarta instead. When in the fact, nothing yet happened in Jakarta at that time.

But it only less than a month, university and high school students took the street in front of DPR/MPR (House of Representatives) building to rage against the representatives and government. Interesting coincidence, isn't it?

There were series of rallies. Several rallies from activists had been held before the students took the street. But the wave of rage got bigger after the House of Representatives passed the new Corruption Eradication Commission (KPK) bill into law in a plenary session, despite widespread criticism from activists, experts, and civilians.

The students finally took the street after that. They (or should I said, we, because I also agree with their notions) protested against amendment of Corruption Eradication Comission (KPK) law, Criminal Code bill, also some of other problematic and controversial bills. They also demand (well, it is present tense here, because the demands yet to be fulfilled) the parliament to immediately pass  the eradication of sexual violence bill and also the bill on housemaid protection.

They (or I supposed to say we?)  didn't only protest about the law, we demand (until now) the government to withdraw troops from Papua and release political prisoners, stop persecution of activists, seriously stop forest fires in Sumatra and Kalimantan, also punish corporation that cause them and etcetera. There are seven points of demand in total.

From those series of rallies, I joined them twice as civilian and I also went to KPK office at the day when the bill passed into law. I might not as aggressive as the students, but I find the urgency of join the strikes since the issues can affect to everyone's everyday life, like literally everyone. Joined them took the street was the least I can do to help them since they also voiced our discomfort toward the government and representative decisions.






After public outcry, Jokowi said he demands to postpone the process of Criminal Code and other problematic bills to be passed on plenary session. But some of people demands yet to be fulfilled, so students continue their rallies. They urge country’s commitment in anti-corruption movement and  responsibility in forest fires. Also public ignore to forget about how the representative abandoned the bills on eradication of sexual violence and housemaid protection for so long.

Unfortunately, the rally turned into violent and became riots in some places in the city. I don't want to point the finger nor blame anyone. I just want to tell the story here.

Let's make this post not to be too political and let's add more fun here because September, no matter how tiring, frustrating, and heart-breaking our county's condition is, still remained me some space to breath, to be grateful for little joy and happiness, to have some fun and to reflect and contemplate life, and also to live the fruitful life to the fullest.

I went to Bali to cover Soundrenaline 2019. It is an annual music festival and it also one of my fave music festivals this year since I got the opportunity to meet and watch Suede live! I can't imagine, after listen to them since high school, I finally got a chance to be close to Brett Anderson, to breath the same Bali air as Suede members, to sing a long while listened to they played their songs on the stage. I feel very lucky and grateful.

I also watch some other musicians, both international and local line ups, such as Primal Scream, Mellow Fellow, Mondo Gascaro, Glenn Fredly, Feel Koplo, Dipha Barus, etcetera. I also did some karaoke with my fellow journalists, tried the coffee which Robi 'Navicula' made to the audience, and met a lot of friends. I also got an interview opportunity and took some photos with Mellow Fellow. Me with other journalists, friends, and thousands people who came to Garuda Wisnu Kencana (GWK) for the festival had so much fun fun fun. (Well, I'm thinking to write about my trip to Bali, but yes, maybe on the next post or the post after the next post, I don't know, but I'll write about it).









Something to be highlighted on September was an event called Gemasi's Alumni Seminar that took me back to the campus. Gemasi stands for Gelanggang Mahasiswa Sastra Inggris. It means association for Unpad's English Department students. I came to the seminar as speaker, hehe. I shared some (hopefully) fruitful stories of my current job as music journalist and how study literature affects my writing and story telling capability and also how literature affects my sensitivity toward issues. I might not sharing a lot of things but the session was super fun.



On October 1st 2019, I decided to take a day off from office since I need to make a new passport at South Tangerang's immigration office. I took some rest by ate some delicious meals, went to coffee shop alone to read Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood and enjoy the solitude, and of course had a coffee, bought some skin care products and a new cloth, and had proper sleep. Well, I can say that I welcome October happily.






1.10.19

A little throwback

Before I went there, I barely knew about Taiwan. As long as I can remember, my first memory with the country was because I am a fan of F4 and Meteor Garden series when I was on elementary school back then. I once really wanted to go there just to meet Jerry Yan, the member of F4 who used to be my childhood crush haha. In 2018, I found an indie band called Sunset Rollercoaster who come from Taiwan. I enjoy their music, My Jinji, Burgundy Red, and so on are my fave songs of them.

Even smallest dream did come true. I got opportunity to go to Taiwan and stay at Taipei in the middle of 2018. Disney invited my media to cover Press Junket event of Ant-Man 2. Visit Taiwan no longer my dream when I got that opportunity, but as my plane arrived at Taoyuan airport, I knew I would love the country.

The city, I mean Taipei, is very clean. They have large pavement so we can walking on foot comfortably. We can move in the city with public transportation comfortably to. They have proper public transportation, from city bus to MRT.







Beside working, I also went to some places. I went to touristy attractions such as Taipei 101. Taipei 101 is the highest skyscraper in Taipei. On the top of it, there is an observatory where you can see Taipei from the top. The view is breathtaking, of course. 

I also went to Jiufen. It located near Taipei. I took two-hour trip by bus to get there. There is a famous traditional market there. Some people said, the setting of Ghibli's Spirited Away is inspired by that market. In Jiufen, there is also a popular tea house called A-MEI. I loveeeee Jiufen very much. There are a lot of stores which sell Ghibli's merchandise there. 






The other thing that can make you in love with Taiwan is food. The street food there looks tempting. I visited Taiwan on Ramadhan. It was very difficult to find halal food which free from pork and lard, but trust me, when you find it, it tastes so good! There are a lot of night markets that sell a lot of tempting Taiwanese street food such as crispy chicken or milk tea with boba on it. Of course, Shihlin Night Market is the most well-known. 




I also love the atmosphere there. I think it will be nice to walk around, listen to 80s city pop tunes from your headseat while sightseeing the city. Taipei has the beat that the city need, but it doesn't make too much hustle bustle. The city both dynamic and slow, both busy and quite. It is far from crowded and you can see anything feels so neat in the city. 

It was nice to visit Taiwan and I'd love to go there again someday.