24.6.17

Lebaran Pertama Tanpa Eyang Uti; Sebuah Surat Cinta

Tulisan ini dibuat secara impulsif. Saat mata enggan terpenjam di malam lebaran 2017. 

Tahun ini, lebaran tidak akan pernah sama lagi seperti tahun sebelumnya. Bukan, bukan karena sekarang saya bekerja sebagai jurnalis yang dikenai kewajiban untuk piket di hari libur, itu salah satunya. Tapi yang paling membuat lebaran tahun ini dan tahun selanjutnya akan berbeda adalah karena Eyang Uti sekarang sudah tidak lagi berada di tempat yang sama dengan tahun sebelumnya. Eyang Uti kami, meninggal dunia dengan tenang pada Desember 2016 lalu. 

Beberapa tahun belakangan, saya sering mengeluhkan dalam hati, betapa sepinya rumah Banjarnegara semenjak Bude Ipuk berpulang. Sekarang, rumah itu akan semakin sepi tanpa kehadiran Eyang Uti. 

Saya ingat, waktu kecil, saya adalah cucu yang manja. Baik kepada Eyang Uti, maupun Eyang Kakung. Ibu, Eyang Uti, dan Eyang Kakung sering bercerita betapa, waktu kecil, saya seringkali tidak mau tidur jika tidak digendong oleh salah satu Eyang saya itu atau jika tidak diajak berkeliling naik mobil oleh orangtua saya. Merepotkan sekali tentunya. 

Saat kelas 2 SD, Eyang Kakung saya meninggal dunia. Itu adalah kehilang terbesar pertama saya, di usia sebelia itu. Saya sedih. Sedih sekali. Hingga kini dada saya masih sesak oleh rindu setiap kali saya mengingat Eyang Kakung saya yang nyaris tidak pernah berkata "tidak" pada saya. Yang selalu memanjakan dan membelikan apapun yang saya inginkan. Eyang Kakung meninggalkan kenangan yang begitu banyak dan pertanyaan, "Kalau Eyang Kakung masih ada sampai sekarang, dia senang nggak ya, lihat saya sekarang?" atau "Apa ya kata Eyang Kakung kalau saja dia masih hidup?" di setiap hal-hal yang saya lewati, ketika saya menang lomba puisi di SMP, ketika saya lulus dan mendapatkan nilai sempurna di sidang skripsi, ketika saya bekerja sebagai jurnalis, bahkan ketika saya sedang labil-labilnya di SMA dan kerap kali berdebat dengan kedua orangtua saya. Maklum, saya begitu dekat dan manja dengan beliau. 

Eyang Uti meninggal beberapa waktu lalu, di usia saya yang 23 tahun. Meninggalkan begitu banyak kenangan dan kesedihan yang sedikit berbeda untuk saya. Jika Eyang Kakung pergi ketika saya masih sedang manja-manja dengan beliau, Eyang Uti pergi ketika saya tengah disibukkan oleh diri saya sendiri. Ketika saya sedang menata kembali hidup saya pasca dikoyak-koyak oleh quarter life crisis. 

Yang membuat saya sedih, Eyang Uti pergi setelah saya jarang menelponnya, setelah saya jarang mengunjunginya, setelah saya dapat hidup tanpa bermanja-manja dengannya lagi, Dulu, banyak kenangan yang saya lalui dengannya dan bahkan, yang tidak bisa saya lalui jika dengannya. Semakin besar, saya seperti berjalan 'menjauh'. Walau saya selalu mengingatnya, tapi jarang sekali saya sisakan waktu untuk menelpon. Jika ingat untuk menelpon di sela-sela kesibukan, sampai di rumah saya justru langsung tertidur pulas karena kelelahan. 

Saya masih ingat bagaimana Eyang Uti selalu membaca koran di ruang tamu rumah Banjanegara, bagaimana ia kerap kali membangunkan saya pagi-pagi dan selalu saya kerjakan dengan ogah-ogahan karena merasa masih butuh tidur, bagaimana saya seringkali tidak doyan dengan masakan di Banjarnegara karena dirasa terlalu manis dan bagaimana ia selalu khawatir jika saya belum makan dan bertanya berulang kali saya mau makan apa. 

Saya selalu suka mendengar cerita sejarah dari versi apa yang Eyang Uti lihat, bagaimana ia melihat perang dan jaman penjajahan, saya selalu suka mendengar cerita bagaimana Eyang Kakung dan dia bertemu, saya selalu bangga memiliki Eyang Uti yang masih membaca hingga usia senja. 

Dari hati yang paling dalam, saya sebenarnya sangat menyayangi Eyang Uti. Dulu dan kini. Rasa sayang saya tidak pernah berubah, saya pun yakin, rasa sayang beliau pada saya tidak pernah berubah, bahkan mungkin semakin besar. 

Saat ia semakin tua dan kondisinya semakin menurun, lewat sambungan telepon ia kerap kali menanyakan kapan saya datang, ia kerap kali berkata betapa ia merindukan saya. Tapi jarak dan waktu yang tidak bisa membuat saya sering-sering datang. 

Kepergian Eyang Uti, membuat saya kadang berpikir, "Harusnya saya lebih sering menelepon, harusnya saya lebih sering ngobrol dengan Eyang saat di Banjarnegara, bukannya malah sibuk menyendiri di kamar dengan alasan butuh istirahat, harusnya begini, harusnya begitu," pikiran yang sudah seharusnya diikhlaskan karena bagaimana pun, waktu tidak bisa diulang. 

Saya tahu, Eyang Uti tahu saya menyayanginya. Hanya saja, terkadang ada kesedihan yang membuat saya berpikir, kalau saja saya tidak terlalu egois mengurusi hidup saya dan memikirkan diri saya melulu, mungkin banyak waktu yang bisa saya gunakan untuk menjadi lebih dekat dengan Eyang Uti, seperti waktu saya kecil. 

Tapi, semua sudah lewat. Yang saya syukuri, saya masih sempat meminta maaf kepada beliau sebelum beliau berpulang. Yang saya syukuri, saya yakin beliau mendengarnya dan memahaminya. Yang saya syukuri, saya ada di sana mengantar beliau ke tempat peristirahatan terakhir dan memberikan bakti terakhir. 

Saya menulis agar saya lega karena saya begitu diganggu oleh rasa kehilangan malam ini. Saya tahu, beliau kini tengah berjalan ke tempat yang lebih. Beliau kini mungkin sedang berlebaran dengan Eyang Kakung. Jadi seharusnya saya tidak perlu sedih, seharusnya saya mengambil hikmahnya. 

Yang saya inginkan kini, hanyalah semoga Eyang Uti beristirahat dengan tenang di alam sana. Semoga Allah SWT selalu menerangi jalannya menuju surga. Aamiin ya Rabb. 

Sampai bertemu lagi, Eyang Uti dan Eyang Kakung. Saya sayang kalian. 

4.5.17

Coldplay's A Head Full of Dreams Tour in Bangkok

Last month, I was invited by Warner Music Indonesia to watch Coldplay's A Head Full of Dreams Tour in Bangkok, Thailand. I was sent as music journalist from an Indonesian based online media. It was my second time to be sent aboard as a Journalist. Last year, HBO invited me to Singapore and had some interview with James Marsden, a Westworld's actor (I consider to write about it on my blog too. Soon!). I know I really am lucky since everyone (yes, like everyone) wants to watch their concert.

So on one Friday morning at April 7th 2017, I went to Bangkok. I flew from Cengkareng to Don Mueang International Airport, Bangkok. Ya, it's Coldplay and it's Bangkok! Again, I really am lucky. 

There were some obstacles when our group headed to the venue. First, there was a long queue on airport's immigration (and yes, as I expected before, almost all of people on the airport went to Bangkok for Coldplay). After survived the immigration queue, we had to face Bangkok's traffic jam. 

The traffic was so bad, especially around the venue. We finally decided to reach the venue on Rajamangala National Stadium on foot. But, yes, we are finally MADE IT TO COLDPLAY!




Coldplay's Bangkok concert was.......AMAZING! I can say that it was almost perfect. I love their setlist. They were not only played their new songs, but also played some of their old songs. But, the best thing about the setlist was how the setlist successfully touched everyone's heart. They arranged the setlist perfectly and made the concert felt so emotional. I cried two times at the concert. 

Other things that I love about this concert are the lighting, the ambiance and the concept. They made the perfect lighting on the stage and also the great ambiance by Coldplay's glow in the dark signature wristband. And yes, the concept. The concept was perfect! They made it as if every each song has its own story. They made it with confetti, fireworks, and also some balls. I love it very much!









I feel so lucky that I have a chance to witness Coldplay's live performance. They are so great. I'm in love with them and instantly became huge fan of them after watch the concert (I bought their CD on Warner Music Thailand booth in the venue as to prove my fidelity toward them, haha). 

Honestly, before the concert I never called my self as a huge fan of Coldplay. Of course, just like everyone else, I listen to them and grow up with some of their songs (who doesn't anyway?), but I never thought that I really listen to them, especially after Ghost Stories album (even I really am in love with O from Ghost Stories). I only listen to some of their songs from their old albums casually, and started listen to them again since A Head Full of Dreams album. But, somehow, when I listen to their songs, some of them remind me of some particular memories and then become my life soundtrack, just like Yellow, Paradise, The Scientist, Everglow, and so on (it was one of the reasons why I was really excited to watch them). 

In the end I realize, Coldplay always there. Their songs always there from I was a kid until now. And yes, after the concert, I realize one thing, I am a huge fan of them. I really in love with them, their stage act, and their songs. I promise my self, if I get another chance to watch them again someday, I definitely will take it! So, see you again Coldplay!

P.S. click here to read my published report from Bangkok on the media I'm working for. 

Berbag(a)i Cerita

Ya, karena saya (lagi-lagi) sudah cukup lama tidak nge-blog dan tiba-tiba sudah 2017 saja, saya mau menulis tentang beberapa hal yang dapat saya ingat di tahun 2016 lalu.

So, here some stories, tapi urutannya berdasarkan apa yang pertama saya ingat ya, bukan berdasarkan waktunya, hehe:

1. I went to Music Gallery and watched Last Dinosaurs. Sejujurnya, sebelum menonton Music Gallery 2016, saya bukan penggemar Last Dinosaurs, saya pernah mendengarkan lagunya beberapa kali, namun bukan pendengar yang mengikuti perkembangan mereka. Tapi, saya justru jatuh hati setelah menonton penampilan live mereka. Seminggu penuh saya demam Last Dinosaurs yang biasa saya sebut post-concert syndrome, haha. Setiap setelah menonton konser saya pasti terkena post-concert syndrome dan mendengarkan lagu musisi tersebut berulang-ulang kali.

Saya jatuh hati pada lagu Honolulu dan Zoom dan yap, mendengarkannya berkali-kali. Selain Last Dinosaurs, saya juga menonton Elephant Kind (and yes, I'm in love with this band too!), Panama, Silampukau (my fave band!!! I love this band very much!), The Adams (I'm a happy fan girl!), and Maliq & D' Essential.



2. I spent my last day of being 22 by watching The Adams at Rolling Stone Cafe, South Jakarta. Ya, The Adams adalah salah satu band lokal beraliran indie rock yang begitu saya sukai, bahkan semanjak saya masih berada di bangku sekolah dasar. Sore itu, tepatnya 15 Mei 2016, persis sehari sebelum saya berulang tahun ke 23, akhirnya saya kesampaian nonton The Adams lagi!


3. I finally got the chance to watch Copeland, and yes, it's on Bandung! Setelah melewatkan penampilan meraka di Bandung pada tahun 2010, karena saat itu saya masih bersekolah di Jakarta, akhirnya saya mendapat kesempatan untuk menonton mereka di Kampoeng Jazz 2016. Sebuah annual event yang diadakan oleh Fakultas Hukum Universitas Padjadjaran. Malam itu, Bandung baru saja terguyur hujan. I can say it was almost perfect night! 


4. I paid Bandung and Jatinangor some visits. Setelah lulus kuliah, saya masih saja mencintai Bandung dan Jatinangor, kota yang saya tinggali selama empat tahun untuk berkuliah. Saya pun berencana untuk sering-sering mengunjungi Bandung dan Jatinangor. Untungnya, rencana saya berjalan cukup lancar. Hehe. Di setiap kunjungannya, cinta dan rindu saya semakin mendalam pada Bandung dan Jatinangor. 



Kineruku, salah satu tempat favorit di Bandung.


Went to Armor Kopi with Zhynda, and in love with this place!



Karena saya suka sekali dengan rasa kopi dan teh susu hangat serta ketenangan yang ditawarkan Armor Kopi, saya pun pergi lagi kesana bersama Bella, Della, dan Tasya di kunjungan yang lain.


Went to Jatinnagor with Bella and had some coffee with Dika and April. 


Akhirnya bisa ketemu sama teman-teman kelas yang dekat di dunia perkuliahan dulu. They are Niken, Cici, Trissa, and Seli. Kurang Dinda, Firdha, dan Audy yang berhalangan hadir. 


Pergi ke NuArt Sculpture Park, galeri dan taman seni milik seniman kenamaan I Nyoman Nuarta bersama Zhynda pada sebuah kunjungan ke Bandung yang lainnya.

So, see you on the next post!




25.9.16

Short Vacation to Honje Eco Lodge, Ujung Kulon National Park

As Jakarta workers who work so hard from nine to five and make a friend with hustle bustle, sometimes we need an escape to a peace and beautiful place to release the stress and pressure. When you really need to escape, but you don't have so much time, you can go to Honje Eco Lodge. It's located on Ujung Kulon National Park (or Taman Nasional Ujung Kulon in Bahasa), Banten. I think Honje is almost perfect!

You can stay in the beach house that real near to the private beach. Like, you only need 10 steps to go to beach, yes, real near! You can hang and swing your hammock on the trees and relax. 

I went to Honje with some close office mates of mine. Yes, it was more like a farewell trip (or not really farewell since we still often hang out together), since some of us, including me, decided to resign from the office. Yes, four out of eight people who joined the trip, to be exact. We went to Honje Eco Lodge a week before my last day, and the trip was unforgettable. 

We didn't do so much thing. No snorkling, no tracking around the forest, no sightseeing the rhinos (yes, Ujung Kulon Natinal Park is well-known as the habitat of rhinos). It was only us, enjoyed the time, talked about everything from heart to heart, acted like child who throw beach sand to each other, played cards and warewolf, sang and danced, swam in the oceans, listened to the natural beach sound, relaxed and played under the sun. 

I arrived there on Saturday morning after took five-hour (or six, or even seven? sorry I forget the exact time) road trip from Jakarta. My first impression to the view was..... great. I felt really captivated by the view. And yes, it really is, the view is great! The private beach seems so clean and, yes... private, hahaha. It just us and other visitors who played on the beach. 



One blissful morning at Ujung Kulon National Park. 





See? It's very beautiful, picturesque, and peace. 

Just like what I said above, we didn't do much of tourist thing, but we did more intimate things, we made memories and moments that we can remember forever (sounds cheesy and exaggerate, I know, but it is true, you know). It was like what we have been planned before we go, to take some rest and enjoy our time in a peace. And yes, we had fun and it felt like our energy was being recharged. 



Look! We can see that blue ocean water from our beach house. That close, that near, that relaxing. 

We really enjoy the trip and like always, hoping that we can come back again someday. I'm beyond in love with this place. 

"But I'm just to love you in any kind of way. But I fell love on the seaside, in the seaside.
- Seaside, The Kooks. 

One Fine & Happy Birthday Trip

In May 2016, I turned into 23. Being on twenty-something is.... something that I know would happen to me, but I never expected the time would come THIS fast, haha.Well, as a birthday present, my parent gave me return tickets to Bali, the island of Gods.

I think Bali is perfect place to celebrate my birthday. I went to Bali with Chitra, but on Bali we met our friend, Damay who currently lives there. I arrived in Bali on beautiful Satuday night. From the airport, Chitra and I straightly headed to Damay's dormitory. We took some nap and took a rest before the real holiday start.

First Day

It was a good and very fine sunny Sunday. After had some breakfast we went to Kuta to rent a motorcycle. After that, we went to Kuta Beach Walk and buy some things that we thought we need. We headed to Pandawa beach afterwards. It took so many adventure, Chitra and I almost being ticketed by the police, but it was all worth it.Pandawa beach is.... very beautiful and breathtaking. The water is so blue and crystal clear. The sand is so white. Very picturesque.





I told you, it is crystal clear!

After that, we planned to see sunset at Double Six beach but we can't manage to reach Double Six since Chitra and I got lost and there was a traffic aroung Kuta, so we decided to enjoy sunset on Kuta beach. And it was..... amazing!


It somehow reminds me of Sarasdewi's Lembayung Bali song. 

Second Day

Second day was unexpected, unpredictable, yet unforgettable. We planned to go to Canggu and in the middle of our way to Canggu, Chitra and I got an accident. But, we finally reached Canggu. Canggu is also beautiful and.... calming. The beach has a big waves and I like it very much. 




Calming and relaxing to the mind and eyes.


After that, actually we planned to treat our injuries in the clinic but the time was running out, so we decided to go to Potato Head Beach Club in Seminyak to enjoy the sunset there, instead. It was fun to spend time at Potato Head. I swam, sang, and danced to beat while enjoyed the sunset. 



Pleasant time at Potato Head Beach Club, Seminyak.

From Potato Head, we straightly went to clinic and treated our injuries. Mine was only a very small injury but since there was a sand tucked into my injured skin, the treatment was very torturing. But, the treatment healed the pain instantly. At the night after took some food, shower, and rest, we had some dance. It proved that my injured foot was healed up. 

Third Day 

On the third day, and also our last day, we went to famous gelato place in Seminyak, Gusto Gelato & Caffe. Gusto offers a lot of flavor of gelato. The gelato is tasty and delicious. It fits with beach nuance and Bali's sunny weather. 


The delicious and well-know Gusto Gelato!

After that, we returned the motorcycle to the rental on Kuta and we bought some souvernir before go home. And oh yes, we had some betutu chicken with its sambal matah for lunch. It's mandatory menu that you have to try when you are on Bali!


Betutu!

Chitra and I had a night flight that took us home. I had a good time and hope I'll go to Bali again, soon!